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How to Avoid the Holiday Overload When You are a Sensitive Creative

Creative people are sensitive people. We can enjoy the subtle differences among Yellows, a beautiful piece of music brings tears to our eyes, and a mall this time of year is the equivalent experience of throwing on all the lights at 3 a.m. when you were sound asleep. Overload to our sensitive systems can happen easily during most of the year when there is way too much stimulation and Christmas/Holiday time is all about mass stimulation, and yes, that sounded naughty.

My husband and I were brave enough to shop two stores during Black Friday. There were tremendous sales, people rubbing elbows in crowded aisles, overheated rooms and STIMULATION. After about an hour of grabbing what felt like anything shiny and half price, or even triple below the price, I felt like a kid opening up the twentieth present at Christmas. You are excited, happy, and a little fried and twitchy. I imagine this is what gamblers feel like after a big win. You want more adrenaline, more wins, more more! But being a sensitive person I felt the effect on my body as if I had a large glass of caffeine. I was wired and I had no idea how I was ever going to calm down. After several hours after shopping I started to come down and stare at what we bought. I don’t even know what we picked up. I wasn’t sure of my name. I forgot what month it was. And why was my left eyelid twitching so much?

Holidays are tough. I probably sound like a Grinch but I am just focused on the overwhelm heading my way. Unlike the kids, I have a different experience of Christmas. I remember last year spending DAYS wrapping until I never wanted to see Scotch Tape again. We spent money we didn’t have. The house was wall to wall decorations in weird places. And I am learning that for a parent there is a whole lot of the have-tos which make the experience not so much festive for an adult. 

You have to:

  • Buy presents for the mailman
  • Fill out a Christmas Letter filled with exciting details of the year and I am notoriously private
  • Send out holiday cards after you have no money for postage after you spent all the money on holiday gifts and brave the POST OFFICE LINE
  • Decorate the front yard while trying to keep the new puppy in the backyard but she sees you in the front yard and is flipping out and trying to find a way out
  • Send a gift to a relative who told you to disappear and have a good life
  • Make cookies? I am notoriously awful at cooking so this really causes major stress
  • And now the kids informed me they want to celebrate something called Advent. What is Advent? Does it involve buying more gifts or baking? Please say no.
  • There’s decorating the church with Greens and driving around the neighborhood watching flashing lights so I can have a migraine.
  • There’s holiday parties…I really hate small talk. It’s just cruel.
  • There’s also lots of talk of Jesus, of course, which is a bit awkward when you are Jewish. Conflict of interest.

That’s a lot of Have To’s.

Is there a sure sign of overwhelm? You feel way bitchy. And I mean way. I bet my list even sounded a tiny bit bitchy. Your crankiness can spill all over and those nasty thoughts can even escape if you are not careful and you can scream the F word in front of the kids when you didn’t mean it, or tell one to please stop talking because your ears are going to explode. It doesn’t mean you are the Incredible Hulk having a moment, but it does mean you took way too much on and your circuits are frying. All this stimulation and constant excitement is not meant for a sensitive system. A small tree with a few lights in the middle of the Forest to visit? Yes, that sounds more like it.

Is there a solution??? This year I am having limits. A whole new concept I am learning. It’s an interesting thing that explains and sets what I can and can’t do, and what I am willing to do. You want cookies for your class? Well, then Dad will have to go buy some. Family wants to go to a holiday party filled with noise and kids running around? I am willing to do this one other thing like buy all the presents, but I will stay home and watch Rudolph with the Dogs while you visit. It doesn’t mean I don’t care or want to participate, or not part of the family, it just means that I need to take care of myself or Christmas will be renamed The Migraine Holiday, and January will bring in a bad case of the Flu. Thank you for understanding.

Happy limit making, my friends.

Dedicated to supporting my fellow creatives survive the Holidays,

The Gift and Curse of SOUND

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I’m telepathic. It’s a weird skill and one I didn’t know I had until my first animal communication class back in 1998. I later became an animal communicator because I could hear the thoughts of the animals pretty clearly and I love animals and wanted to help them. For over fourteen years I was a practicing animal communicator. When I stopped in 2014, I thought my head would grow quiet and I’d have a rest. Instead, I find I pick up on thoughts and sounds even more and I need to be careful what affects me without me realizing it. I become overly exhausted from too much sound, whether a noisy mall, too loud neighbors, or the kids making noise in the middle of the room with repeat nonsense sounds.

There’s so much noise right now on the Internet and the feeds and you can inadvertantly pick up the Noise in your head and walk away with it, much like a tune that bounces around in your head you can’t get rid of.

When there was so much of the political unrest after the election and right before there was a collective Sound of Helplessness and Anger. Anywhere you felt that in your life it flared up to deal with.

When there were horrible floods and hurricanes, the Sound was feeling overwhelmed or flooded in your life.

With the current Weinstein story and sexual abuse stories, women everywhere hear the Sound of when they were abused. It’s like a note on a keyboard that is pressed and immediately, you are back there, experiencing that disrespect, that violation, that betrayal. That sound brings back the energy and pulls you in.

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Don’t get lost in it

Sounds are good if they bring up experiences to heal. That’s the gift of Sound. Face it, deal with it, let it all out. But if Sound brings something up you shouldn’t get lost in it. It’s not now, it’s then. Honor it, learn from it, watch it from afar, and then bring in a new sound. But recognize it. You are reacting to a certain time, a certain note being played. You are safe.

Hearing too many stories may be overwhelming you. Your empathy is on overload. You don’t need to hear more Weinstein experiences from actresses. You already get his number. You need to fight Sound with Sound. Hear your own thoughts, and music is the antidote to take you there.

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When the path is too hard..stop or keep going?

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I had to drop my 3d animation class. It was so so hard and felt like an uphill climb every step of the way.

I really needed a beginner class before this one to introduce the program instead of diving down into an exercise of engineer-brain type compiling of a very intricate catapult in chapter four we were expected to recreate. The book was awful, and how I learn I needed a different approach, introduce tools one at a time in the beginning of the book instead of in chapter three after we used them. I feel like I was set up for failure. When I found out my options were either muddle through this class and then have to take the advanced class (this wasn’t advanced?) to earn the certificate, I panicked. I felt like I was being tortured and the catapult arm we were creating did look remarkably similar to a medieval torture device. I later heard there would be a change in the certificate’s requirements in the Fall so I could hold out for that and take two different better suited courses. The choice for me was already made.

When things are so uphill is it a sign you should stop or do you need to keep going?

I tend to hang in there for better or worse, as an overly committed and too responsible person, but what if that is not what is best? Wouldn’t it be easier if large signposts dropped from the sky directing us?

I don’t have that, so I look to the experts on investigating this question.

I found The Dip by Seth Godin in an second-hand bookstore. He writes, “You should quit if you’re on a dead-end path. You should quit if you’re facing a Cliff. You should quit if the the project you’re working on has a Dip that isn’t worth the reward at the end. Quitting the projects that don’t go anywhere is essential if you want to stick out the right ones.”

With that 3d class, I hit a Cliff and the reward in the end was learning a program I already decided was not right for me and I wouldn’t use.

Some things are full of slow growth and demand persistence. Do you stick with those? Like building a website or building a new project? Or finding a publisher. 😉 According to Godin, you need to see, after lots of work, forward movement. If there isn’t any, that’s your signpost.

So many movies I love, usually the dance movies I mentioned in a prior post, the star has to move through many obstacles in order to succeed. Usually, it’s the love of what she is doing — dancing — keeps her keeping on, so to speak, to the end. “I’m going to dance the shit out of it,” one character says at the end of Center Stage. She sticks to the love of what she’s doing — that’s her reward.

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It’s the pursuit then of what you are doing. Are you still feeling joy? Are you still enjoying what you are doing? Is the process however hard at times still what you want in the end because you are enjoying the process? Or, are you miserable, having headaches, and waking up with dread or anxiety?

Martha Beck in Finding Your Own North Star, writes, if you’re feeling “choked hostility, or numb depression, or nauseated helplessness is a sure sign you’re steering away from your North Star toward a life you were not meant to live.” If it’s hard getting there and not for you, you will feel like you are carrying a ton of hard weight and will be in a low energy state, wanting to sleep all the time with no rest.

Perhaps then, when things are so hard, and you hit a huge wall, they are clear indicators you are heading the wrong way. There are signs! There are other ways to climb that tree or whatever else you are trying to accomplish. Maybe there is a better fit somewhere else. (And you have to believe that it is out there.)

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Looking back at my life I see whenever it was way too hard and nothing seemed to work, I should have jumped ship and found another way to get there. Perhaps swim. And where I was meant to be, there was flow, or at least support along the way, and that joy.

Something to expand your thinking this week:

Where in your life is an endeavor way too hard? Is there an alternative that would be easier, simpler? Is it an indication you need more help or should quit? What do you think?

Until next time,

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The Excitement Theory: when you are lost

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I hate and I like my 3d animation class. It really feels like Rocket Science and what should take a shorter time always takes forever. I am grateful most of my homework is done during the day when the kids have school because my language at the computer becomes very…colorful. The guy who wrote the manual for the class is a psychopath who wants readers to dive into the book for the first few chapters and THEN he explains simple steps on what is in this tool or that. He teaches in a way that is backwards from what I need. My teacher, God love him, understands the book full-heartedly and speaks his language. He doesn’t see the dilemma. The book skips super simple basic steps and then expects my exercises to look the same. It doesn’t. See below.

The part I like? I do like the challenge of trying to conquer the book. My brain needs to bite down into something or it tends to reel around itself causing me great angst at 3 a.m. in the morning. The conclusion of all this is I probably won’t be a 3d animator. It’s not path. That seems to be a clear direction or indicator there unless I want to fund headache research with the amount of Tylenol I buy.

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So far this looked good. We had to make a cartoon hand with very specific instructions.

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My finished cartoon hand. Yes, I am brutally aware that my cartoon hand looks like he is giving the finger. Thank you to Ben for pointing this out. Subliminally, I think I expressed what I was really feeling. But hey, the thumb looks very Micky Mouse-y, which I dig.

Which brings me to the most important lesson. By experiencing what you don’t like, you become much closer to the path meant for you. That’s direction!

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I don’t like crafts but I do like to paint. Follow painting.

I love designing from a simple idea. I can see a halloween-like birdcage (today shopping in Michael’s) and think, “Omg! I can make a drawing of an unusual bird for that. And it would have a goth feeling to it. And tiny black trees everywhere. And then make it move up in down in the cage…” Note my excitement. Design that bird.

On the other hand, I don’t like crafts. I don’t want to copy the watercolor technique of Jane Davenport even though she does have a cool whimsical flair she is making boo-coo bucks on. Those styrofoam houses are cute but I’m bored with the designs. I don’t want to collect all the Halloween miniatures and make a display in my kitchen. There’s no ideas there I can jump off. I need to follow more designing.

The problem becomes when you try to convince yourself you like something. Or, that something would be good for you, like my 3d class. I think if I had one of those engineer minds and was one of those people who like to take the dishwasher apart just to see how it works, this would be for me. Wouldn’t it be great if I could do 3d designs in my work? my husband tells me. Yes, it would really cool, but to get to that place I am afraid my head will explode and that will be very messy for all involved. If I can just get a B in the class and not put an ax to my computer, I will be happy.

I will let you in on a teeny tiny secret I am learning now. Ready?

I get most off path when I think I need to follow what others want. Wow, I really like when you write about XYZ. So I write more about XYZ but meanwhile, I’m really excited lately about making an animated playhouse for the Idea Emporium. I just went off path.

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If you gave an online class about being sensitive again, I’d buy it. Crap. I’ve been thinking and wanting to make a zine lately. About being authentic. It’s tickling at me, but I am wondering if anyone would buy it. But maybe I should create what they want instead, but that’s not what is coming through me right now.

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Deep down I do believe that what has your spark, your enthusiasm, your excitement right now has this cool, registering energy that people pick up. It’s you on your very specific yellow brick road. They react to it. It’s kinda like a new haircut you are excited about and now you are feeling all confident and buzzing and everyone likes your pic on the Facebooks.

And what if they don’t get excited? Ah, indeed. That’s what I am grappling with. I think that’s when you have to have a little faith, a little trust, that the theory that what gives you the most excitement and turns you on is for you. I need to stand by it. I need to at least test drive that for awhile. I could be very wrong, but at least I am enjoying the journey along the way.

What do you think? Have you tried this theory? Does this resonate with you,

Until next Blog Tuesday as I contemplate making this zine, and definitely making a dark goth playhouse for Reg…

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Feeling Frazzled when the World Goes a Little Crazy? Tips to get Grounded

I don’t know about you but the last month has been crazy! If you are sensitive at all you’ve felt the collective angst and fear as it oozes through social media computer screens and into our homes. We’ve also had some chaos at home and within my family reflecting the world around us. Physically, it has felt like living in a rocky one person boat bouncing around in the sea. Emotionally it has felt like all my emotions are raw and on the edge. I have felt tremendous anxiety and anxiety I have learned = too much energy running through the system.

After finding out that my friends in Florida are safe and okay, but many without power, I felt my body sigh with relief. I could relax now. I had no idea I was still in flight or fight and thinking unclearly until this morning after a fitful night sleep, over-warm and overtired, I woke up and glanced at the clock thinking it was an hour later. I overslept! I flew open the bedroom door. Where was Nathanial? Did he leave for school? He was still here! Fifteen minutes after the bus would already have left. In a panic I called my husband at work, who had my car (his battery died the night before, ironically to add to the chaos). He was able to rush home for a break to take Nathanial to school only to realize that he was right on time. We both thought it was an hour later. After the kiddo went to the school bus stop and Ben back to work, I thought, Damn, I’m friedI am really ungrounded and need to fix this.

That’s what the Fight or Flight and one thing after another does to your system. It makes it all frazzled and funky and time gets confused. In the news we’ve had wild protests with Nazis, solar eclipses, Hurricane Harvey with a town under water, political decisions that have unnerved us, and then a huge hurricane of the century that gratefully, didn’t live up to its predictions. Never mind the poor folks in the hot zones of the storms! It’s enough to throw anyone even with the strongest of cores.

Grounding is all about imagining that you have a tree trunk attached to your core and the roots go deep into the ground. You are connected to the earth. Steady and strong. You are in your body and in your feet. When stuff is happening many creative and sensitive people tend to fly up and out, half in and half out. It’s comfortable out there. We grab ideas and inspiration. When we are in the midst of craziness or disruption in the world, we automatically unground. Watching the overwhelming floods and winds, it’s no wonder we wouldn’t want to connect to Mother Earth, who seems a little pissed off. So what do we do? We need a new sense of grounding. We look at what creates structure, order and brings calm back in. Here’s a couple of suggestions I’m about to do.

Feeling Safe

What helps you feel calm, safe and taken care of? When I think of comfort, I think of my soft blanket my grandmother sewed for me, Cobi’s fur next to me, and a warm bath while listening to my favorite music. When I’m ungrounded what I really want and need is to feel nurtured. I have my touchstones — my favorite t-shirt I can wear, a turtle necklace I’ve had forever I can throw on.

Don’t Add Stuff

This is not the time to add new things. When taking on something new you need courage and strength from your core. When you are ungrounded that part is feeling vulnerable and a little wobbly. I was tempted to add new groups online. That one online workshop sounded interesting. Nope, not the time. Need to get steady first.

Get Back to Routine

I have that one special coffee mug I like to have my morning drink with, and that bagel or english muffin I eat like clockwork every day. Maybe it is OCD to like the same things, but it creates structure for me. A bit of yoga poses to a video might help me feel more “in.” Going to the studio at the same time creates structure. Back to my animation lessons’ neatly organized homework structure helps. Blogging here every Tuesday is part of the groove.

Notice the Trees

I’m a fairy girl so being near trees nurtures me. Going outside and staring at the huge healthy pines that surround the house and are still standing helps me feel all is okay in the world. I grab my camera and take photos of the next door neighbor’s babbling brook, the butterfly that just landed on a desert marigold. Nature is calming and it also can take away a great deal of nervous energy that has been bouncing around in my body like a pinball machine.

Get Back on Track

Life gets crazy, stuff happens, and it’s easy to lose track of what YOU wanted to do and what matters most. As an empath I can get pulled into everyone else’s story and forget I even have one of my own. I take out my book proposal. The animation book. The book I found on Multiple Intelligences and how people learn. I keep a bullet journal with pictures so that helps me to refer back to what I am needing and what I originally wanted to focus on. It’s even fun to gather the pictures, cut them out and arrange them in the book.

Watch What You Eat

Sure, eating a ton of sugar is the go-to when I’m stressed out, but the resulting rollercoaster of blood sugar afterwards is not worth it. When my blood sugar is haywire so is my reactions and emotions. I am best with lots of protein and several small snacks and regular meals throughout the day.

Feel My Feet and Get Rid of the Extra Energy

Dancing really helps me get into my body and out of the emotions. Painting for fun helps me process out all those excess emotions that are mine vs. not mine. I start out in a frenzy of paint splashing everywhere and an hour or two later the calm comes in and the insights. Ohhhhh, that wasn’t even mine I was feeling? Yup.

And lastly, Renew

Calming down a bit I can fill up with what nourishes me including animation that is clever and fun. I found a bunch of interesting stop motion videos. Watching these helps me get back on track and replenish with what feels uplifting and good. I’m going to be sure not to fill up with more Facebook feed pictures of hurricane devastation, which ungrounds me more, because then I have to start this list all over again!

Being self-aware that I am sensitive and take on too much that is outside of me when things get crazy is the biggest first step to self care and probably should be first to recognize before I start on my grounding list. To know thyself, correct? Noticing this I will need to limit my involvement with the world a bit until I am back on my feet.

Off to tackle this list. Incidentally, in church on Sunday we learned the power of words — how words can help or heal. We were asked, how can we give the gift of words? We had a bit of time to reflect and in my analysis I realized this is my gift outward, this blog, this gift of words once a week to try to help one other creative and sensitive soul. In a way, it’s my tithing to give back what I have been given. I do hope it helps.

Until next Blog Tuesday, (and be sure to follow the blog or sign up for the newsletter),

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You are enough

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It’s easy to get lost.

The world is a little crazy right now. From too much water to too much hate.

As an empath or a sensitive creative person you can get lost in the waves of the collective helplessness. Feeling not enough, is the symptom. And those are the times you need to remember, you are enough, even if you can’t fix what is happening around you. Even if you can’t fix the chaos in your own little orbit at this moment.

Here at the Idea Emporium we celebrate your unique expression and ideas because no one has a voice like you, however you express it.

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I watch a lot of movies because I love good storytelling. I decided to gather up and share my favorites that bring home this message in case you need an antidote.

  1. Center Stage

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Tale of a ballerina with “bad feet” trying to make it into the world of an elite ballet company with perfect feet.

“But I’m not you. I’m not perfect. I’m just me. Bad feet and all. And I’m starting to think I like that even better.”

Turns out there is a whole series of these movies now. Since I’ve been dancing since I was a tiny fairy, dancing movies always interested me. In Center Stage: Turn it Up, an incredible dancer is rejected from the ballet company. She finds her own unique way to success in a round-about way.

In Center Stage: On Pointe, Bella, the sister of the dancer in the previous movie, accepts she’s no ballerina. She’s built like a real person, for one thing, and Modern is her jive. I’m thinking these Center Stage movies all have the same theme. Success for the circle that doesn’t fit into the square peg, which many of us can relate to.

2. Happy Feet

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In Happy Feet, penguins find their soulmates through their heart songs. This one can’t sing, but boy can he dance. The message? Using the gifts you’ve been given because there’s a purpose for them in the world. And sometimes your heart song is a heart dance.

“Miss Viola: Without our heart song, we can’t be truly penguin, can we?

Class: No.

Miss Viola: But, my dears, it’s not something I can actually teach you. Does anybody know why? Anyone? Anyone?

Baby Gloria: You can’t teach it to us, ma’am, because we have to find out heart songs all by ourselves.

Miss Viola: Well done, you.

Baby Gloria: It’s the voice you hear inside, who you truly are.”

3. The Help

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Holding self-esteem in the face of unacceptance and poor treatment in a racially f’uped time.

“You is kind. You is smart. You is important.”

4. Romy and Michelle’s High School Reunion

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One of my favorite movies of all time, even though it is silly. (Fashion design folks, the clothes are great!) Nothing like feeling inadequate about how far you haven’t gotten in life, only to discover you have gotten farther then you thought, just in a different way. And a healthier way, I might add.

“Lisa Luder: Actually Christie. They have nice lines. A fun, frisky use of color. All and all, I’d have to say they’re really… NOT BAD! “

regpinktieBrene Brown says,” Believing that you are enough is what gives you the courage to be authentic, vulnerable and imperfect. When we don’t have that, we shape-shift and turn into chameleons; we hustle for worthiness we already possess.” 

Let’s embrace our crazy ideas, our designs, our projects, and our bad feet! Let’s be vulnerable enough to be fully us, and courageous enough to be vulnerable with each other.  And when we forget, these movies can remind us.

Until next Blog Tuesday,

The Fairy has spoken.

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The Shadow in us we need to greet and Shadow Theater

I anxiously awaited the sun being blotted out while hiding out in the house away from windows with my Giant Ooh Yellow Dog, hoping the eclipse would pass quickly. Crouching down on the couch and pretending nothing was happening, while facing my fears of going blind, I thought about the Shadow. Not the old-time radio drama my mom used to play for me on cassettes, but the emotional shadow. Perhaps how we faced this eclipse is how we face that shadow. Some folks were out there with special glasses, with a ton of faith, staring directly at the sun. Since I was not one of them, I must have a hard time facing mine.

The last few weekends at church we covered the seven deadly sins. Now let me explain this. We belong to a really cool church that was test-drove after many different churches that would fit our bi-religion family. Pastor Jessica is super sweet, forward-thinking, deep and a fellow introvert who does enjoy being at the podium for two hours a week. She approached the deadly sins like we should approach our shadow. There was no judgement or shaming, just awareness. We looked at Gluttony and were honest with ourselves where we were holding back and not trusting. We looked at things like Sloth and where we needed to show up. I digged this view of the shadow. Reveal it with a little light, let it out on paper, and then reframe it.

The other day I felt some serious shadow emotions. I was very upset and angry when my stepkids got into an accident. I felt ugly things that probably didn’t make sense or were “wrong” but what I learned was I needed to express those feelings because they needed to come out, otherwise I was guaranteed a whopping headache later. I had to expose them to the light to get to the other side of it regardless how they looked. If I jumped immediately into “being positive,” it was going to go somewhere in my body or hang on for awhile. And you know what? I expressed them. I felt them. I wrote them down. I drew them. I allowed myself to think evil, mean thoughts, and nothing happened. Thoughts did not become things. I didn’t destroy a village. Nothing was burned on the front lawn. And once I did, I got to the other side of it, and thought clearly and calmly, and had more empathy for everyone involved. I judged my shadow, and it was trying to help me.

So this week through my art and through design I want to play with shadows. Light and dark. And shadow puppets.

I’ve been putting together my introduction video for my Playhouse. Want a peek at my sketchbook?

 

Oooh. Pretties. Just begun. Still more to come.

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Will you join me? How can you express through being creative and greet and meet your Shadow? How is it trying to help you? Some things to play with, experiment with. Planting a seed.

Until next Blog Tuesday, embrace the Sun and the Moon.

 

 

When the World Goes Crazy, Lighten the Load & Find What Fits

blogwhatfitsI have such the habit of piling it on. What is mine, what isn’t mine, what is the collective mine, what is out there, what is not my responsibility…And I found myself overloading, again. My stomach goes on vacation without me and I get an headache as a big wakeup call that I’ve been carrying the world around on my shoulders. I’m not really sure why I don’t just have shoulder issues, which literally and symbolically makes a lot more sense. I’m guessing because the classic feeling center is the stomach. And sometimes we can’t avoid the overload, like the shakeup that is happening in the world in Charlottesville, or kids going back to school and having big emotions expressed. But one thing I know for sure is that my creativity is deeply affected.

Looking at this overload and the relationship to creativity my mind searches for a solution to bring balance back. In my email today, the fabulously real Danielle Laporte asks, What will you let go of? Letting go translates to lightening the load. Because if I am taking on the world and a whole lot of stuff that isn’t my stuff to work on, I need to drop that suitcase down on the ground, so I can create and express. I need a moment of honesty with myself.

  • I can’t do much about what is happening in rallies of hate, but I can support those who are doing something about it. I can hand it to them.
  • I can’t do much about my stepkids’ world before me, but I can say a prayer that they figure things out themselves and find their voices. I can hand it to them.
  • I can’t do much about the inbalance between what I give out and what I receive…whoa…what’s this…but can I? I can drop things that don’t perform. That feels like I am giving so much out and not getting back? That would really be lightening the load.

Now we are hitting paydirt and some deep honesty…

Last week I mentioned again on Facebook that I was asking for donors at Patreon for my new book. For only $1 or $5 a month folks would be supporting my project, the Idea Emporium Book, as I created it. That’s $1.00. When I started the Patreon page, a few of my dear friends who have seen me through thick and thin, lent their support. I was deeply grateful. With their support I was hopeful, excited, and filled with ideas. I could share bits and pieces of the book. I could share lessons, ideas. And I have. Support feeds your creativity. And I wanted to share with even more people and create even more.

Now I’m an extremely creative person. Sometimes the ideas, whether good or not, flow through too much and I can’t shut off the flow. If I didn’t create I would crumble. It would be like shutting off a raging river and I’d either flood over or dry up. And when I asked and shared, and got crickets, I felt unsupported, invisible. And then I felt resentful. And most healthy people just pull back and don’t share as much. Not me. I give more! With suggestions from a coach for the book she suggested I increase my social media presence and that would eventually sell the book. I added a facebook biz page for my book. I now have two pages to take care of. I started writing again, which I needed to do, because without writing I was cutting off the flow. I got ideas for doing classes again and I wanted to offer a zine. More ideas. More flow. But again, I looked at that Patreon page and the result and I pulled myself way back. This is a business after all, and without financial support coming in, it is hard to feel rewarded for what I do and feel that balance of giving what I have and sustaining that business. Whether folks don’t trust or understand Patreon (which I think might be some of the issue), or whether they don’t see the value, it wasn’t helping.

I felt all this today as I cleaned the house with my stomach healing, and as I avoided the news and social media angst over the world and focused on scrubbing. I’m not sure I will keep my Patreon page as I don’t want to burden my besties, and that is how I am feeling. But I don’t want to let of my idealism either or enthusiasm for what I am creating, or that hopeful feeling when I create something new. And I like to give, I like to help others. That’s my mission.

Creatives, can we be more honest what fits and doesn’t fit us? Instead of doing more work for less reward?

  • The exhaustion of Facebook ads to maintain a page when I am not a social media marketer
  • Having paintings in gallery shows; I am not a fine artist
  • The follow/unfollow technique on Instagram. Can I have a great big Ewwww?
  • Free seminars or classes to get folks to look at your work
  • Wholesale
  • Big venues when I’m a one on one kind of person

I just think the formula to get there we are told and taught is not working for me and I need to find new avenues, new areas of support, to seek out so I can keep creating for those who value and need it. I need to find my formula.

Can you lighten your load and carry less of the world on your shoulders? And what isn’t fitting and what needs to be a better fit for you regardless of “how it’s being done?” Feel free to share what DOES work for you.

Freeing your thinking and my own. Until next Tuesday,

ronnidesigningfairy