The Gift and Curse of SOUND

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I’m telepathic. It’s a weird skill and one I didn’t know I had until my first animal communication class back in 1998. I later became an animal communicator because I could hear the thoughts of the animals pretty clearly and I love animals and wanted to help them. For over fourteen years I was a practicing animal communicator. When I stopped in 2014, I thought my head would grow quiet and I’d have a rest. Instead, I find I pick up on thoughts and sounds even more and I need to be careful what affects me without me realizing it. I become overly exhausted from too much sound, whether a noisy mall, too loud neighbors, or the kids making noise in the middle of the room with repeat nonsense sounds.

There’s so much noise right now on the Internet and the feeds and you can inadvertantly pick up the Noise in your head and walk away with it, much like a tune that bounces around in your head you can’t get rid of.

When there was so much of the political unrest after the election and right before there was a collective Sound of Helplessness and Anger. Anywhere you felt that in your life it flared up to deal with.

When there were horrible floods and hurricanes, the Sound was feeling overwhelmed or flooded in your life.

With the current Weinstein story and sexual abuse stories, women everywhere hear the Sound of when they were abused. It’s like a note on a keyboard that is pressed and immediately, you are back there, experiencing that disrespect, that violation, that betrayal. That sound brings back the energy and pulls you in.

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Don’t get lost in it

Sounds are good if they bring up experiences to heal. That’s the gift of Sound. Face it, deal with it, let it all out. But if Sound brings something up you shouldn’t get lost in it. It’s not now, it’s then. Honor it, learn from it, watch it from afar, and then bring in a new sound. But recognize it. You are reacting to a certain time, a certain note being played. You are safe.

Hearing too many stories may be overwhelming you. Your empathy is on overload. You don’t need to hear more Weinstein experiences from actresses. You already get his number. You need to fight Sound with Sound. Hear your own thoughts, and music is the antidote to take you there.

Tool:

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When the path is too hard..stop or keep going?

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I had to drop my 3d animation class. It was so so hard and felt like an uphill climb every step of the way.

I really needed a beginner class before this one to introduce the program instead of diving down into an exercise of engineer-brain type compiling of a very intricate catapult in chapter four we were expected to recreate. The book was awful, and how I learn I needed a different approach, introduce tools one at a time in the beginning of the book instead of in chapter three after we used them. I feel like I was set up for failure. When I found out my options were either muddle through this class and then have to take the advanced class (this wasn’t advanced?) to earn the certificate, I panicked. I felt like I was being tortured and the catapult arm we were creating did look remarkably similar to a medieval torture device. I later heard there would be a change in the certificate’s requirements in the Fall so I could hold out for that and take two different better suited courses. The choice for me was already made.

When things are so uphill is it a sign you should stop or do you need to keep going?

I tend to hang in there for better or worse, as an overly committed and too responsible person, but what if that is not what is best? Wouldn’t it be easier if large signposts dropped from the sky directing us?

I don’t have that, so I look to the experts on investigating this question.

I found The Dip by Seth Godin in an second-hand bookstore. He writes, “You should quit if you’re on a dead-end path. You should quit if you’re facing a Cliff. You should quit if the the project you’re working on has a Dip that isn’t worth the reward at the end. Quitting the projects that don’t go anywhere is essential if you want to stick out the right ones.”

With that 3d class, I hit a Cliff and the reward in the end was learning a program I already decided was not right for me and I wouldn’t use.

Some things are full of slow growth and demand persistence. Do you stick with those? Like building a website or building a new project? Or finding a publisher. 😉 According to Godin, you need to see, after lots of work, forward movement. If there isn’t any, that’s your signpost.

So many movies I love, usually the dance movies I mentioned in a prior post, the star has to move through many obstacles in order to succeed. Usually, it’s the love of what she is doing — dancing — keeps her keeping on, so to speak, to the end. “I’m going to dance the shit out of it,” one character says at the end of Center Stage. She sticks to the love of what she’s doing — that’s her reward.

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It’s the pursuit then of what you are doing. Are you still feeling joy? Are you still enjoying what you are doing? Is the process however hard at times still what you want in the end because you are enjoying the process? Or, are you miserable, having headaches, and waking up with dread or anxiety?

Martha Beck in Finding Your Own North Star, writes, if you’re feeling “choked hostility, or numb depression, or nauseated helplessness is a sure sign you’re steering away from your North Star toward a life you were not meant to live.” If it’s hard getting there and not for you, you will feel like you are carrying a ton of hard weight and will be in a low energy state, wanting to sleep all the time with no rest.

Perhaps then, when things are so hard, and you hit a huge wall, they are clear indicators you are heading the wrong way. There are signs! There are other ways to climb that tree or whatever else you are trying to accomplish. Maybe there is a better fit somewhere else. (And you have to believe that it is out there.)

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Looking back at my life I see whenever it was way too hard and nothing seemed to work, I should have jumped ship and found another way to get there. Perhaps swim. And where I was meant to be, there was flow, or at least support along the way, and that joy.

Something to expand your thinking this week:

Where in your life is an endeavor way too hard? Is there an alternative that would be easier, simpler? Is it an indication you need more help or should quit? What do you think?

Until next time,

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The Excitement Theory: when you are lost

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I hate and I like my 3d animation class. It really feels like Rocket Science and what should take a shorter time always takes forever. I am grateful most of my homework is done during the day when the kids have school because my language at the computer becomes very…colorful. The guy who wrote the manual for the class is a psychopath who wants readers to dive into the book for the first few chapters and THEN he explains simple steps on what is in this tool or that. He teaches in a way that is backwards from what I need. My teacher, God love him, understands the book full-heartedly and speaks his language. He doesn’t see the dilemma. The book skips super simple basic steps and then expects my exercises to look the same. It doesn’t. See below.

The part I like? I do like the challenge of trying to conquer the book. My brain needs to bite down into something or it tends to reel around itself causing me great angst at 3 a.m. in the morning. The conclusion of all this is I probably won’t be a 3d animator. It’s not path. That seems to be a clear direction or indicator there unless I want to fund headache research with the amount of Tylenol I buy.

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So far this looked good. We had to make a cartoon hand with very specific instructions.

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My finished cartoon hand. Yes, I am brutally aware that my cartoon hand looks like he is giving the finger. Thank you to Ben for pointing this out. Subliminally, I think I expressed what I was really feeling. But hey, the thumb looks very Micky Mouse-y, which I dig.

Which brings me to the most important lesson. By experiencing what you don’t like, you become much closer to the path meant for you. That’s direction!

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I don’t like crafts but I do like to paint. Follow painting.

I love designing from a simple idea. I can see a halloween-like birdcage (today shopping in Michael’s) and think, “Omg! I can make a drawing of an unusual bird for that. And it would have a goth feeling to it. And tiny black trees everywhere. And then make it move up in down in the cage…” Note my excitement. Design that bird.

On the other hand, I don’t like crafts. I don’t want to copy the watercolor technique of Jane Davenport even though she does have a cool whimsical flair she is making boo-coo bucks on. Those styrofoam houses are cute but I’m bored with the designs. I don’t want to collect all the Halloween miniatures and make a display in my kitchen. There’s no ideas there I can jump off. I need to follow more designing.

The problem becomes when you try to convince yourself you like something. Or, that something would be good for you, like my 3d class. I think if I had one of those engineer minds and was one of those people who like to take the dishwasher apart just to see how it works, this would be for me. Wouldn’t it be great if I could do 3d designs in my work? my husband tells me. Yes, it would really cool, but to get to that place I am afraid my head will explode and that will be very messy for all involved. If I can just get a B in the class and not put an ax to my computer, I will be happy.

I will let you in on a teeny tiny secret I am learning now. Ready?

I get most off path when I think I need to follow what others want. Wow, I really like when you write about XYZ. So I write more about XYZ but meanwhile, I’m really excited lately about making an animated playhouse for the Idea Emporium. I just went off path.

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If you gave an online class about being sensitive again, I’d buy it. Crap. I’ve been thinking and wanting to make a zine lately. About being authentic. It’s tickling at me, but I am wondering if anyone would buy it. But maybe I should create what they want instead, but that’s not what is coming through me right now.

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Deep down I do believe that what has your spark, your enthusiasm, your excitement right now has this cool, registering energy that people pick up. It’s you on your very specific yellow brick road. They react to it. It’s kinda like a new haircut you are excited about and now you are feeling all confident and buzzing and everyone likes your pic on the Facebooks.

And what if they don’t get excited? Ah, indeed. That’s what I am grappling with. I think that’s when you have to have a little faith, a little trust, that the theory that what gives you the most excitement and turns you on is for you. I need to stand by it. I need to at least test drive that for awhile. I could be very wrong, but at least I am enjoying the journey along the way.

What do you think? Have you tried this theory? Does this resonate with you,

Until next Blog Tuesday as I contemplate making this zine, and definitely making a dark goth playhouse for Reg…

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Imaginary Finds: The Resurrectionist

Here at the Idea Emporium the imagination is celebrated and design ideas are born. The store manager saw this book today. Have you read it?

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From Amazon.com: “Philadelphia, the late 1870s. A city of gas lamps, cobblestone streets, and horse-drawn carriages—and home to the controversial surgeon Dr. Spencer Black. The son of a grave robber, young Dr. Black studies at Philadelphia’s esteemed Academy of Medicine, where he develops an unconventional hypothesis: What if the world’s most celebrated mythological beasts—mermaids, minotaurs, and satyrs—were in fact the evolutionary ancestors of humankind?” I found the book here.

Field trip to a Pumpkin Patch

Time for a Field Trip!

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I don’t know about you but I need some light, some fun, some Nature! I need…a pumpkin patch. And Reg has a delivery over there.

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Oh there are the Monster Twins from the Invention Room. We can follow them.

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Oh there’s Reg. He’s making the delivery for Mr. Scarecrow. Interesting twist, a scarecrow friends with a crow. Only in the Idea Emporium world.

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There’s a few pumpkin flowers. They come with pumpkins. How cool is that?

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Time to pick a pumpkin. Oh *&%$#, Oslo got there first. Oslo, I wanted that pumpkin!

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Time for some Blue Pumpkin Pie over in the Idea Emporium Bakery. It’s today’s special, by the way.

Until next time,

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Experiment #212: Clarice’s Buying Trip

Clarice runs the Fashion Department of the Idea Emporium. She bought herself a Roller Coaster Hat, popular among the giraffes.

Feeling Frazzled when the World Goes a Little Crazy? Tips to get Grounded

I don’t know about you but the last month has been crazy! If you are sensitive at all you’ve felt the collective angst and fear as it oozes through social media computer screens and into our homes. We’ve also had some chaos at home and within my family reflecting the world around us. Physically, it has felt like living in a rocky one person boat bouncing around in the sea. Emotionally it has felt like all my emotions are raw and on the edge. I have felt tremendous anxiety and anxiety I have learned = too much energy running through the system.

After finding out that my friends in Florida are safe and okay, but many without power, I felt my body sigh with relief. I could relax now. I had no idea I was still in flight or fight and thinking unclearly until this morning after a fitful night sleep, over-warm and overtired, I woke up and glanced at the clock thinking it was an hour later. I overslept! I flew open the bedroom door. Where was Nathanial? Did he leave for school? He was still here! Fifteen minutes after the bus would already have left. In a panic I called my husband at work, who had my car (his battery died the night before, ironically to add to the chaos). He was able to rush home for a break to take Nathanial to school only to realize that he was right on time. We both thought it was an hour later. After the kiddo went to the school bus stop and Ben back to work, I thought, Damn, I’m fried. I am really ungrounded and need to fix this.

That’s what the Fight or Flight and one thing after another does to your system. It makes it all frazzled and funky and time gets confused. In the news we’ve had wild protests with Nazis, solar eclipses, Hurricane Harvey with a town under water, political decisions that have unnerved us, and then a huge hurricane of the century that gratefully, didn’t live up to its predictions. Never mind the poor folks in the hot zones of the storms! It’s enough to throw anyone even with the strongest of cores.

Grounding is all about imagining that you have a tree trunk attached to your core and the roots go deep into the ground. You are connected to the earth. Steady and strong. You are in your body and in your feet. When stuff is happening many creative and sensitive people tend to fly up and out, half in and half out. It’s comfortable out there. We grab ideas and inspiration. When we are in the midst of craziness or disruption in the world, we automatically unground. Watching the overwhelming floods and winds, it’s no wonder we wouldn’t want to connect to Mother Earth, who seems a little pissed off. So what do we do? We need a new sense of grounding. We look at what creates structure, order and brings calm back in. Here’s a couple of suggestions I’m about to do.

Feeling Safe

What helps you feel calm, safe and taken care of? When I think of comfort, I think of my soft blanket my grandmother sewed for me, Cobi’s fur next to me, and a warm bath while listening to my favorite music. When I’m ungrounded what I really want and need is to feel nurtured. I have my touchstones — my favorite t-shirt I can wear, a turtle necklace I’ve had forever I can throw on.

Don’t Add Stuff

This is not the time to add new things. When taking on something new you need courage and strength from your core. When you are ungrounded that part is feeling vulnerable and a little wobbly. I was tempted to add new groups online. That one online workshop sounded interesting. Nope, not the time. Need to get steady first.

Get Back to Routine

I have that one special coffee mug I like to have my morning drink with, and that bagel or english muffin I eat like clockwork every day. Maybe it is OCD to like the same things, but it creates structure for me. A bit of yoga poses to a video might help me feel more “in.” Going to the studio at the same time creates structure. Back to my animation lessons’ neatly organized homework structure helps. Blogging here every Tuesday is part of the groove.

Notice the Trees

I’m a fairy girl so being near trees nurtures me. Going outside and staring at the huge healthy pines that surround the house and are still standing helps me feel all is okay in the world. I grab my camera and take photos of the next door neighbor’s babbling brook, the butterfly that just landed on a desert marigold. Nature is calming and it also can take away a great deal of nervous energy that has been bouncing around in my body like a pinball machine.

Get Back on Track

Life gets crazy, stuff happens, and it’s easy to lose track of what YOU wanted to do and what matters most. As an empath I can get pulled into everyone else’s story and forget I even have one of my own. I take out my book proposal. The animation book. The book I found on Multiple Intelligences and how people learn. I keep a bullet journal with pictures so that helps me to refer back to what I am needing and what I originally wanted to focus on. It’s even fun to gather the pictures, cut them out and arrange them in the book.

Watch What You Eat

Sure, eating a ton of sugar is the go-to when I’m stressed out, but the resulting rollercoaster of blood sugar afterwards is not worth it. When my blood sugar is haywire so is my reactions and emotions. I am best with lots of protein and several small snacks and regular meals throughout the day.

Feel My Feet and Get Rid of the Extra Energy

Dancing really helps me get into my body and out of the emotions. Painting for fun helps me process out all those excess emotions that are mine vs. not mine. I start out in a frenzy of paint splashing everywhere and an hour or two later the calm comes in and the insights. Ohhhhh, that wasn’t even mine I was feeling? Yup.

And lastly, Renew

Calming down a bit I can fill up with what nourishes me including animation that is clever and fun. I found a bunch of interesting stop motion videos. Watching these helps me get back on track and replenish with what feels uplifting and good. I’m going to be sure not to fill up with more Facebook feed pictures of hurricane devastation, which ungrounds me more, because then I have to start this list all over again!

Being self-aware that I am sensitive and take on too much that is outside of me when things get crazy is the biggest first step to self care and probably should be first to recognize before I start on my grounding list. To know thyself, correct? Noticing this I will need to limit my involvement with the world a bit until I am back on my feet.

Off to tackle this list. Incidentally, in church on Sunday we learned the power of words — how words can help or heal. We were asked, how can we give the gift of words? We had a bit of time to reflect and in my analysis I realized this is my gift outward, this blog, this gift of words once a week to try to help one other creative and sensitive soul. In a way, it’s my tithing to give back what I have been given. I do hope it helps.

Until next Blog Tuesday, (and be sure to follow the blog or sign up for the newsletter),

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